My Struggles

Hey guys! It's late at night, so if I type something weird that's why. I've decided that I'd tell you what I want to change about myself within the next couple of months.

1. My relationship with God.
Many people have jobs, do school and put Christ at the center of their life. I used to be that way too. I've recently been failing at reading the bible everyday and praying everyday. One of my goals this year was to read the whole bible. I started out good and am honestly failing at the moment. I like to use the excuse of "I just worked 8 hours" or "I just need sleep". I've realized that  don't just need sleep. I need Jesus! I need to read and meditate on His words day and night. Ever since I was young I've wanted to be a good example to all the little kids around. How can I be a good example if I can't read Gods word everyday? It just isn't possible. I would also like to start prayer journaling. I began prayer journaling back in April or May, its  been great to see how God has answered my prayers and worked in my life.


2. My social media.
to many of you social media isn't that big of a deal, for me it is huge. I use it as a way to share Gods word. I have a public Instagram where I have around 400 strangers following me. Many people think that's strangers following me is weird. I honestly can't help but to agree. If you think about it, I get the opportunity to share Gods work to these strangers. If I could just change one persons life, it would so be worth the time! I also have a youtube channel. I would like to be more consistent with posting videos. I would really like to start doing bible talks or bible lessons. I would also really like to start taking my blog more seriously. I don't really know what I'm going to do with my blog, but I know I'm going to turn it into something.

I hope you guys enjoyed learning about my struggles. please leave a comment down below with what yours are! -Reese A Ziegler

All About My First Job

Hey guys! It has been a very long time since I last wrote a blog. I am here today to tell you all about my life these past few months. well, where do I begin? I got a job!! it's not as exciting as it seems. I mean, yeah, the money is nice. I am starting to think having my time back would be nicer ... I'll probably end up keeping the job until fall of 2018. See, I will be turning 16 in that November, so I would have more jobs I could choose from. well, where do you work?  I am a housekeeper/desk sitter at our local hotel. Its not my ideal first job, but it'll do. I was offered a job at our local design/print studio. I was told that I could answer phones and basically be their secretary. I would eventually work my way up in the company and be a business manager. My dad also owns his own VERY successful construction business. He said that he can no longer keep up with all the paper work, so that is his way of saying he needs help. I am debating on what to do... if I work for my dad would I do that on the side or would I do it full time? What I was thinking is, I could save my money from the hotel job and use my money I'd make from being a secretary as spending money. I've had so many people tell me they wished they would have saved more money than they did. I don't want to say that when I'm older, so I guess I better start saving. Well, I've got to go. see, you next time!
-Reese Ziegler

To Much To Ask

I would like one day where feel normal. you know the normal where your joints don't hurt so bad its all you can do to walk across the room. The normal where your head doesn't hurt so bad you cant even open your eyes. The normal where stomach doesn't hurt so bad you cant even move from the fetal position your laying in on the couch.
I want to not have to ask thousands of questions when I go out to eat just to find out that the restaurant you're at doesn't have any thing you can actually eat. I want to not have to wash my hands 10,ooo times after I touch a "normal" piece of bread. I want to be able to go to a social event and be able to eat anything and everything. I want to be able to go to a friends house to spend the night and not have to bring my own meals. I want to be able to eat that ice cream from diary queen that my whole family is eating right in front of me. or even those fries that stranger is eating behind me. I want to not be worried about my body attacking itself and shutting down. I want to not have a fear of passing my illness down to my kids and them living in pain for the rest of their life. I want to not wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to move because somebody dropped their fry on my food without telling me. I then realize that I will never be normal because there is no cure. I will never be able to walk into a donut shop and eat a donut. I will never be able to able to share cake with my little brother at his birthday party and I'll never be able to eat my favorite meal again. when I first realized this I cried and cried for hours on end, whether it be in the grocery store, a restaurant, or even my mom and dads arms. I was beyond angry at the several doctors who told me I was faking and there was nothing wrong with me all while my body was attacking itself and making my condition worse. I was angry at my family for eating that piece of cake in front of me. I cried in my favorite restaurant because I had to watch everybody around me eat things I will never be able to have again. I was angry at friends for saying "oh, you cant have this ever again can you? I then realize that maybe being normal is to much to ask and that it is never going to happen...

What my blogspot name means

Hey guys and gals!  Today I'm going to tell you what my blog name means.
last spring I lost all of my friends due to me standing in what I believe in.  I was really struggling with the fact that the only person I had to talk to was my siblings and my mom and dad. I didn't have any clue why God would let all the friends I  had for 13 years just disappear out of my life and want nothing to do with me. I went a month of literally never talking to anybody but my family and being extremely angry that God would let something like that happen. I spent a lot of that time in my room being angry and writing. I finally got over the madness and anger I was holding towards God and I broke down crying and felt so terrible for blaming God for something like this. I spent a good hour praying and asking for forgiveness! when I was praying I asked God when will I have friends again? I no joke heard a voice saying "just wait". Now, I've never really had an experience where God has talked to me, so when this happened I had complete faith in God and felt extremely content with this whole situation. Sure enough I was invited to something homeschool related and met these incredible people! I no joke have 10 bestfriends that I can trust and that love me no matter what I do or say.
God fulfilled his words and i couldn't be any more grateful for that. remember when you've lost all hope in God or just life in general God can always turn it around and make your life even more amazing!
xoxo- Reese A Ziegler

Hey guys! I decided to talk to you guys a little bit about dating and courtship. I've never had a boyfriend before, but I have had several boys ask me out. I'm basically the queen of rejecting boys. yes, I know that sounds super arrogant, but I promise its not meant to sound that way! Our family's dating rules have always been kind of strict, but not super strict. I wasn't aloud to date until I was 14. Honestly now that I am old enough to date, I really feel like God doesn't want me to date... when a boy asked me out and I gave him my honest answer about how I feel God doesn't want me to date. He thought I was just using it as an excuse to not go out with him. He honestly is the guy that if I felt like God wanted me to date I totally would date him. I'm gonna tell you a story from when I was 11. I know that was only 3 years ago, but boy oh boy have I changed! I was the stage manager for a historic reenactment. one of the cast members who was 3 years older than me kept asking me out. I kept trying and trying to decline him, but it never made him stop!! somehow he ended up getting my number. I still have no clue how he got it. I have a feeling it was his sister, but she claims she didn't give it to him. Anyways, i thought that after the reenactment was over he'd leave me alone. He still kept calling and asking me out... my parents thought it was so funny! I on the other hand didn't!! I should've been a little more harsh from the start. Now in the time we live in boys think girls are easy and they will date anyone. i think that is so sad! He finally got the hint last spring (two years later) and left me alone. comment down below what your dating rules are! Trust me I want to know! Mine are; you have to be 14, obviously no kissing, side hugs only and can never be alone with him. Most girls my age would think that these rules are stupid and a waste of time, but i have a different point of view. Think of it this way, every boyfriend you have you are giving away a piece of your heart then when you find the one you want to spend the rest of your life with you won't have anymore of your heart to give away because you had so many boyfriends. I don't know its just a thought! thanks for reading and leave your thoughts and opinions in the comments!

-xoxo Reese Ziegler

Hey guys! I haven't blogged for a good while! It feels so good to be writing again. I'm just gonna update you guys again... I hope you guys don't mind all of the updates!

lets start with Christmas! Christmas was super fun, but for some reason I've been struggling with Christmas for about 5 years. My great grandma died 5 almost 6 years ago, so it just hasn't been the same. lets start with Christmas eve! on Christmas eve my grandparents came over and we ate and watched a few movies, it was super fun. Then we had to go clean the church after the candlelight service. Christmas morning we woke up and we made cinnamon rolls. they were so good! we then hung around until about 11 when my grandparents got there and we opened our presents. This year we decided not to do stockings and we just got 1 gift from our parents. I got a super, super nice violin. I'm super excited for that because I've needed a new one for sure. my aunt then came over with my two cousins and we talked and ate. that basically sums up our Christmas. New years eve we tried to have a party, but that all kind of fell through. we stayed home and watched movies and ate way, way, way to much sugar.  None the less we had a blast, but when the clock struck 12 we all went to bed. we have been on winter break and we only have 2 days left and I don't want to hit reality yet. on Monday I'm giving a speech with my friend, so I'm excited for that. my New Years resolutions are to read the whole bible, finish my book, take a picture everyday of 2017, get my league titles back. my biggest one is to be a happy person who makes people smile when they see me. Everybody now a days seem sad and I don't like seeing that and not doing anything about that. my goal is every time I go into public I want to make at least 1 person smile or laugh! also, I failed my drivers test. I'm gonna try to write at least once a week, but no promises.
PEACE, LOVE , HAPPINESS, CONTENTMESS AND CONTROL! LOVE, REESE!

Hey guys! long time no blog ;}  I would like to take a quick minute to thank my followers for commenting nice things and bringing a smile to my face and a  HUGE shout out to K.A for telling her blog about mine!

Anyways, I've been super busy with school and such. I'm not really sure if I told you or not, but I'm homeschooled. Our little town has lots of homeschoolers in the town and in the surrounding towns. The moms decided to start a homeschool co-op. its been a super fun time! Us highschoolers have been taking a bible class, a financial peace class, and a speech class. for bible class we all have to teach our own bible lesson. we have to teach it in the format of a IPEAR.  You can google it to get the definition ;) I'm teaching mine on loving your enemies. stay tuned for that blog post. I feel like loving your enemies is something that everybody tend to forget to do, so a reminder wont hurt. for financial peace, we're watching Dave Ramsey videos. he has lots of wisdom and tips! I totally recommend all highschoolers to take his classes  (you can order them on the web). For speech we are learning how to write and give proper speeches. I actually gave a biographical report on Candace Cameron Bure. I kind of let my nerves get the best of me and didn't do to well. Its ok though, because I have next week to prove myself.

I've been trying super hard to get in shape again. not gonna lie its been super hard to not eat a bunch of sugar and stay up super late and be to tired to get up early and lift weights or walk up a hill for 30 minutes. My friend has been going with me, so its been more fun than work. My mom is a personal trainer, so she has all the tools to make sure we do everything right and don't hurt ourselves. that's been a blessing and a curse, but more of a blessing. she's doing a great job, both my mom and my friend! God sure has blessed me with great people in my life this past year!

our family and our friends the blues are in charge of the ladies Christmas tea at our church. I'm stoked about it! I don't know, just something about being in charge of something big is such a fun thing for me! I would love to be a event planner when I'm older or do something in that sort. I feel like lots of people this year tend to forget about the meaning of the season and start focusing on materialistic things, its so sad to me.  anyways, back to the Christmas tea. My mom picked white for the color and silent night as the theme. its going to be a blast! there will defiantly be lots of pictures for you guys to see! 

Thanks for reading my blog post! Please leave a comment and I'll try to respond;) 

-xoxo Reese